Almost 24 hours since I’ve seen you. Hugged you. Kissed you. Feels like an eternity to me. It will be six years Saturday since I first saw saw your smile. The first time In my life that I couldn’t stop smiling and blushing. Through all the bullshit, through all the fights, I still am completely heartbroken over the loss of not only our relationship, but also our friendship. Yesterday, a part of me died. Everyone says I will be okay, and in time I’m sure I will, but the devastation I feel now is just too real. I’m too in the moment. I just can’t get you out of my head. Your laugh was intoxicating. Your smile melted my heart. You are forever engraved in my heart. I wish you well on your surgery tomorrow and all of your future endeavors. I wish you all the happiness in the world, even if it’s not with me. I love you. Please don’t never forget that.